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As stated above, NO or FOR. Bah, you understand.
I had never done this, but I need to get even a little.
As things lately in my house are worse than normal. When my sister invited two of their ex-partners college, I thought it was okay to continue contact with them and all that ... The problem came when I decided to go to sleep. And what happens? Open the door of my room and find my sister and her classmates are cleaning something and threw freshener everywhere.
I had to go to the bathroom downstairs and then when I went to bed, I'm sure I heard as one of his friends volvíaa vomiting. I had to close my ears to get to fall asleep.
And then I wake up at four in the afternoon for lunch. Friends they were gone ... Entered the room of my sister and I see an empty bottle of rum. I do not know why it gave me an immense anger. Under
and what is the first thing my dad? Shouting, why? Because my mother had told him that he was serving very little food. Just for that? Yes, apparently yes.
My sister, my mom complains about the food. My mom has that face again "why have not I can not do anything right? ". I hugged her, but I doubt that helps. Just sit at the table, my dad and my sister were fighting and I do not remember why.
then most of the meal was silent, too, except when my dad was talking. Hence my sister did nothing but put his eyes, as if all he would say were pure crap. And it may be, but he is trying to communicate with us, after all. And my sister did not know why he hates that way. It is true that he is not the nicest person in the world and I hate tambiéna sometimes a little ... but my dad and I have some appreciation. I also know he feels bad ... has scabs all over his body, psoriasis, and is nervous. I'm sure it's because of my sister and me. Like my mom's depression (after all, the woman, as I have said, is turning his life around us).
I tried to tell my dad and my sister to relax, to calm down. Strangely, I usually keep quiet and ready. But today I tried to see if a miracle happened and I heard a little. Obviously they did ... Just finished lunch I went to my room and I locked up there. And yes, he spent much time since then, but it bothers me, because as I know it's not the first time and the next is very close.
I'm sick, how antidepressants help me deal with that? "And my sister? Or my mom? Sure. And my dad, will he have more scabs every day? I hate my family
as well. I hate to always be fighting or silent. I hate to eat all at the same table when we are not really useless and would be better off all separated.
I hope you are happier, everyone. I like to feel that my sister is happy with your life with your partner, all you have, which are things that sometimes I envy you so much. But no, it always looks as if he were sick of everyone.
My parents find them reason to be sad, having daughters who barely speak ...
I never dared to directly tell this to my sister because she is more extremist and knowing that I now have sleeping pills and what that can do ... I'm too afraid.
And I hate not having anyone close to call, hug, that I hear / see mourn. And to convince me that it is worth continuing in my home and not go. But I have no one like that.
Ya, sorry for this text emo, long and stupid but I do not know. Needed to.
Thanks.
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